💀 weirdgirl zine 💜

my fav self-care ritual? taking a big long shit. when my blood factory is acting like a total piece of assbust, there’s nothing like lighting a candle in the temple of doo and letting it all go. sometimes i get a noah’s ark situation or even a triple wrap-around if i’m lucky. huzzah! as a person with porphyria, i gotta find joy in the bristol-4 moments. my burgundy loaves might be stanky like burnt tires, but at least they’re not bristol-7 brickshits every time. and even if they are, i find comfort in my bathroom, and peace in taking my good long shit. let’s add to the chatter abour SeLf CaRe… finding what works for your mind and bod is what matters. maybe it’s weed, rockstar, and a funny game and/or movie when the depresh hits — like meeeee. sometimes i need to remind myself: it’s my job to live and survive, not my job to fulfill the endless needs and wants of everyone in the universe. it’s my job to eat, sleep, shit, and fuck. that’s it. our energy is precious, especially when our bo...

let’s talk about the game with the blocks! the customizable world is endless. i can build whatever my chaotic heart wants, too! over the years i've made epic structures like a whole city, a temple shaped like a rabbit (dedicated to the worship of meeee), and an rpg with plugins. the feeling of accomplishment after big builds is unmatched. my fave is playing on servers with friends where we collab on huge projects & troll each other. the community really enhances the game - some people make the most elaborate worlds. minecraft sparks my creativity for real. the simplicity of the blocks lets you build anything imaginable. i get so immersed designing & decorating that i lose track of time. minecraft has given me so many good memories & helped me forge priceless friendships. it's a special game i'll forevz come back to when i need to feel creative or accomplished by doing “nothing” at all! pictured: the day i met phyl at the los angeles shelter! we canoodled on a mi...

first off, happy sept 11 to all, yay america, and happiest o birthdays to my girl clem in Maine. 💜💜 my body and mind are a broken wasteland — like mrs o’s porcelain dolly here — and thus the motivation for my nightly pharmaceutical ballet: 2 boops, 2 baldies, 3 gabby p's, a bean, a rice, 2 diarrhea pillz, vitamin d, & a couple muscle tissue supplements. throw in a xanny or ativan when panic decides to attacccc the party. these are my pillsies, my warriors against the chaos inside me. i hate this nightly ritual: a carefully orchestrated dance between me & my drugz. did i mention i’m afraid & incapable of pill swallowing? it’s an ordeal. i'm supposed to take gabby p's for panic in the morning too, but who remembers? not me. these medications are my lifeline, even if i hate taking them. each pill is a smol yet sacred act of rebellion against my bod's genetic limitations. it's a way of managing my mental & physical health. it's the solution i have ...

Welcome to our spooooooky asshole lesson. Happy Halloween! 🎃  Flattery will get you everywhere — it is the ultimate manipulation tool. Forget about sincerity; it's all about creating the illusion of connection. Why be real when it’s easier to fake? Master the art of the perfectly timed, vaguely specific compliment. "I love your... enthusiasm!" The key is to make it just genuine enough to disarm your target, but vague enough to avoid any real commitment on your part. Practice your delivery of these insincere compliments until it's second nature. Soon, you'll be weaving a web of praise so irresistible, people will fall right into it. It doesn't matter if the compliments are genuine or not - power over your target is the name of the game. By showering them with this kind of insincere praise, you create a false sense of trust. They'll be so flattered that they'll be putty in your grubby hands! Become a master of vague, but “heartfelt” compliments. Make th...

Frannie Queen knows that fab on Sims 4 isn’t always just about the clothes and hair, sweetie; it's a whole self-care thing. Switching up my characters’ looks show how they can give us their vampire gods and goddesses, or that playful spirit inside. She's a total inspiration for anyone who wants to stand out, proving that Sims 4 hairstyles in platinum blonde can be killer on your Sim, and super versatile. Even some other Twitch streamers who are just like me — all about plus-size Sims 4 gameplay — are showing off their own Sims’ cool style, which proves people are craving real representation in the Sims 4 world. Finding the perfect DLC for plus-size Sims 4 can be a journey, but Frannie's style is a fab place to start. Whether you're building a sunny California-inspired Sims 4 home or making a Sim with a dark academia thing going on - you’re in good company, so play it your way!

So my convo with pie.eyes started out decently enough, but oh my god it was boring. Nobunny seemed into it. I mean I tried but… Then one day I got sick of it. He didn’t wanna talk or hang, he just talked about random things… —— pie.eyes: You are welcome ❤️ Queen: Do you just wanna call it? Queen: Your responses indicate lack of interest. I assure you, my feelings are more sensitive to the fruitless investment of time than they are to a quick easy "no thanks." 😊 pie.eyes: I'm honestly absolutely terrible at talking to people. I don't know how to continue conversations which I apologize for. Queen: It's okay. It means we don't mix well. pie.eyes: I haven't had a girlfriend yet either so I kinda feel like I'm fucked. 😂❤️ Queen: That sucks, sorry to hear it Queen: Most people don't have relationships anymore anyway so it doesn't really mean much to your peers probably pie.eyes: I understand that. Though I do want someone to marry and grow old wit...

tarot pull (wake & bake): the high priestess -- secrets in the walls, psychic receipts, and that airport bathroom energy of knowing way too much but saying nothing. rosh hashanah and yom kippur happened. the holidays felt like dragging my psyche through a haunted anatomy theater. boundary stuff. trust stuff. survival stuff. big corpse dreams. i’m still a monster tho. jessica has been weird. she admits she is “with” her ex -- who is now married -- and i didn’t tell anyone. i had no idea until she spilled it, all casual. how the hell do i know who she’s texting? i’m not a proctologist. if she did that shit to me i would be pizzzzzed, so… no. i found out for sure when i walked in and saw her texting him. she told me. i told her: you have to tell rebecca. if you don’t, i can’t keep it shut. i’m sorry-not-sorry. don’t covet my wife or my ass no matter how fine it is, and don’t drop secrets like guts on a slab and expect me to just smile and stir the soup. the whole thing is a slow...

So Nosferatu might be an ancient-ass movie, but the creators still knew how to work with what they had. It’s basically a whole vibe war — light vs dark, good vs evil — and they used aesthetics to tell the whole damn story. Check out the decisions these creators decided upon - you can decide why. :) Count Orlok is full extra. Claw-style fingernails, that sadboi dark wardrobe, ears and teeth that give ratty realness… the man is eeeevilllllll and not even subtle about it. Then there’s Ellen, the love interest. Total adorbz. She’s got soft ringlets, wide doe eyes, and that overgrown baby’s nightgown energy — not remotely on trend for the 1920s but perfect for selling that pure wholesome fantasy. She’s the lush angel foil to his nocturnal nightmare. Even the side characters are visually coded. Gustav von Wangenheim plays Hutter, the real estate guy, and his naturally dark hair got blanched and swirled to give off blond clueless white knight vibes. A literal cherub with no clue. Meanwhile, K...

Himari is wearing a black corset-laced cold-shoulder top with a flattering fitted cut, paired with jewelry made by me: Micro seed bead strand for a minimal, delicate layer. Mallorca pearls + hematite bead mix, adding weight and shimmer… a lot like my It-Girl Mallorca Choker . Now you know what happened to the rest of my pearls! porphyria psa porphyria’s a rare beast, which means most doctors have no clue what the hell it is. i’ve sat in more waiting rooms getting misdiagnosed and given useless treatments than i can count. it sucks. so i stopped waiting around and started fighting for my damn health. 🖤 i found a specialist who actually gets it — huge win. i dove into research (shoutout to the american porphyria foundation) and started treating my care like a full-time job. clear symptoms? ✅ asking the tough questions? ✅ demanding tests and treatment that actually work? hell yes. 💜 don’t let any doctor brush you off. get second opinions. get third. your health is your life, and no on...

Monarch & Waffles had had enough of those goddamn SqUiEeEeEeLs causing chaos in their peaceful cottage. Those little dicks had the audacity to raid Monarch's garden, & torment their bunny neighbors at the carrot crypt. The bunnies couldn't even take their naps or frolic without the SqUiEeEeEeLs' disturbances. Waffles'snfavorite chicken, Henjamin Franklin, into panic attacks! Monarch & Waffles were pissed & needed a plan to get rid of those bitches once & for all! Monarch tried a fire spell on the SqUiEeEeEeLs, but those glitchy hellfucks happily ate the fireballs & laughed in their faces! & then came the fire farts. {Imagine if a fart was visible. That's how bad it smelled!} Mandrake bottled up the farts and stashed them away for stocking stuffers in the winter. Waffles could make mush out of anything he hunted, but the SqUiEeEeEeLs were too quick & could teleport away at the last second, landing on his shoulder or pooping on his head...

our fav precious blue stone is filthy with higher thought power — my sapphires get charged to the greatest good, while keeping things practical! at 9 mohs hardness, it's nothing to fuck with on a good day.  best of all, you can combine it with other stones for... metaphysical special effects: pair it with amethyst & you're getting the power of spiritual clarity. mix september’s sapphires with diamond & you're creating a talisman that will increase your higher thought abilities.  this stone is 100% wisdom aiding material, helping everyone expand their knowledge without getting too discouraged or mentally blocked. its calming energy is perfect for anyone seeking a clear mind, or just some old-school glamour in their gemstone collection. a symphony of sapphires: a curated wrist stack featuring sapphire beads, seed beads, sterling ball beads, and a silver sapphire statement ring. {couture bracelet stack: 237tcw by qu33ni3, ring: 3-5 tcw from candy elle’s grandma}

Making jewelry is my therapy. the process of creating something beautiful centers me whether im sick or well, happy or sad. It’s a mental exercise too. There’s patience required, like waiting for a text back; and precision, like applying lipstick in a moving car. The practice seshes are oddly therapeutic. The qualities serve me well when dealing with health conditions that make me feel like a hot melty garbage fire on the reg. This hand-blown glass apple necklace, for instance, is designed to give a calm vibe. The lampwork golden apple dangles from a delicate strand of amber and green glass seed beads. Twas so much fun to make! The process itself is meditative; a shift in focus from the badness of bod and/or mind to the tangible creation in my hands. It’s dank as hell. I'm gonna open  my Etsy shop  soon and stunt all my creations.  In creativity, we find not just coping but thriving. And that's quite all right with me. 💜

my creative workspace isn't always pretty; it's a sloppy explosion of omg. phyllis surveys the scene from a throne amidst a mountain of my rockstar black cans.  crystals hum with chaotic energy, clinging to every surface like a sparkly dust web. this isn't just my studio; it's my sanctuary, my temple of creative madness… where piggy wiggles are done on the regular.  it's where i transform existential dread into weed-inspired, caffeine-fueled, gem-encrusted vampire relics from my heart.

let me tell you about my love affair with the blinkers pen! this sexy little number is packaged like it's too good for the bargain bin. the minimalist design is giving luxury energy, sleek lines that remind me of the men in black pen. the battery life is thicccc, & being able to customize your experience with different button like some damn cheat codes 🤩   whether i'm trying to be stealthy or not giving a fuck, this pen never lets me down. rose gold is hybrid yellow gold is indica silver is sativa 💰💰💰💰💰 (5/5)  good value   ⚙️⚙️⚙️⚙️⚙️ (5/5) pretty, no clogs   🍃🍃🍃🍃 (4/5) nice flavors GRADE: A+

okay, girlies, grab your rosé 'cause it's story time! gather round the fire and let’s burn a piping hot tale of fuckbois past. this one's a doozy. let's dive into my little fling with dirty dan a couple summers back. jill and i spotted him at foxwoods, sweating bullets at the poker table, chain-vaping between hands. he was loud, claiming to be one of la's top players. he was balding like a grandpa, but with those hazel eyes and pearly whites had this crazy charisma and it made a thrill-seeker like me go weak in the knees. so, dms started flying, and things got...intense. one minute he's admiring my mind, and the next he's sending me nsfw pics for my "expert opinion." he at least primed the pump first like a total gentleman! our hookups were unconventional. like, really unconventional. the fur coatroom at that bougie hotel bar downtown. then there was the casino bathroom stall sesh before his poker game. a kiss for good luck — first me, then...

sometimes grief looks like tears & sadness. that's normal for some. for others, it's rage, numbness, or even weird little moments of laughter. but for most of us, it's a freaky hybrid... a mix of sharp, icy pain & moments of odd calm that don't fit the script. in my body, grief doesn't start inside the stomach but around it, like icy, sharp fingers pressing on the outside... creepy, skeletal hands massaging my gastric shell. it's uncomfortable & weird & not the kind of pain most people talk about. grief also makes me fluctuate between feeling hollow & oddly alive. it's the thing that reminds me that grief isn't just sadness... it's a whole wild, messy experience that you don't get to control. & that's okay. just processing. you will learn to control it.

i'm feeling pretty okay, actually. went surfing *again* since the back surgeries – yay! don't get too impressed, though. i mean, i surf, but i totally suck. 😂😂😂😂 haven’t wiped out yet though.

at dawn, gently awaken your partner with a slow, mindful touch – a light caress on the face, a gentle stroke of the hair.  focus on the intention behind your touch, conveying love, care, and respect.  once awake, settle into a comfortable position. begin by focusing on breathing, noticing the rhythm and flow.  as you breathe together, gently place your hands on each other's bodies, exploring the sensations with mindful awareness.  pay attention to the subtle energy flowing between your hands and your partner's skin.  visualize this energy as a warm, loving current connecting your bodies and hearts.   maintain a slow, deliberate pace, savoring the sensations and the growing sense of connection.  let intimacy deepen naturally; maybe kissing, caressing, or other forms of physical closeness, including doing the nasty if both partners are consenting.  the key is to remain present, mindful of the sensations, and to allow the energy to flow freely. ...

🌙 october retreat: balance + signs this october i’m hosting a 3-afternoon virtual retreat . it’s small. it’s intimate. it’s free and it’s for people who are tired of toxic positivity + “money is coming” slogans. together, we’ll look at why things feel stuck, and how to bring both the practical and the spiritual back into balance. 🗓️ schedule day 1 (afternoon): balance-work where we get real about what’s out of sync and start simple resets. day 2 (afternoon): real-talk health, wealth, love — the big three. no gloss, no hype, just usable tools + insights. day 3 (afternoon): cycles + signs how to notice the patterns + omens in your life, and use them to move forward. ✨ after day 3, you’ve completed the retreat. ✨ 🍸 bonus circle for those who want to go the extra mile: friday evening we gather for the Bonus Circle — a cocktail-hour style hang. bring your drink (mocktails count), your bracelet, and your reflections. this is where we laugh, share what lande...