living in an ocean of mixed emotions

when processing your emotions: sometimes you come across shit that you don’t really know if it’s good or bad. sometimes it’s a matter of balancing it out and saying “yeah i know that there’s a downside to y, but it’s mostly positive & i can live with the downside — so i’m putting this in the good section.” or “the benefits just aren’t worth the drawbacks - it’s not great feels.”

even complex issues can be broken down if you look hard enough or long enough. take us, for example. i have a body, which breaks down to individual pieces, which breaks down into different organs, and each organ breaks down into tissue, which breaks down into molecules, which breaks down into atoms, which break down into neutrons protons and electrons, which breaks down into quarks and gluons and i guess some other small shit.

do we always need to break down things that small? sometimes yes, but i think usually not. as long as we know it’s ours and it fits pretty well/functionally in this space, it’s cool de la. it’s when shit *doesnt* fit that we’ll sometimes need to chip away the extra shit and shape it to fit where it’s supposed to go in our minds.